Today is a coffee day. My mom and I talked all morning about the surprise break up. Let's just say we finally got mad. I'm very proud of myself that I was able to see the good in our two months together and I also saw the bad in why things went south. No more tears. I know I'll be fine and that its only a small bump in the road of love and relationships. It clearly was not meant to be and I'll be better with the opportunity to keep getting to know myself better and like I said before continue on the road to my bikini body ;)
With coffee and pj's all morning with my mom, I decided to get coffee out with a friend later tonight. It will be good to catch up and for myself to know that I wasn't sitting home on a saturday night wallowing around in my sadness. I'm clearly brushing myself off, picking up the pieces and getting back out there; all within 24 hours!
I know I promised no more sad posts, but I feel like this is a good post. Coffee, talking, and smiling are all good things for a Saturday :)
Saturday, February 25, 2012
Friday, February 24, 2012
Surprises are never fun
I feel like I need some venting space. At the end of last year I saw things really looking up for me. I was offered a full time position at my job, I met a really great guy, and I finally had a full schedule with things to do. Life was so good. I finally fit in at work, I went on some awesome dates, and I spent time with people I love. I started 2012 with a great guy that I believed finally liked me for me. He wanted to hang out with me, take me places, and spend all of his quality time with me. I was so excited. I was so grateful for someone in my life.
And then out of no where...done. He was done with me. I was used up, worn out, and old. I wasn't as interesting to get to know, we went to every favorite restaurant, drank every type of beer, saw every new movie, and therefore, he was done. Except that I feel disrespected, drug around, led on, and misleaded. I feel like this happens to me a lot. Are there no good guys out there?? I'm beginning to think there aren't. For real.
The sad part was that I was in this new relationship 110%. When he was having a bad day I was there for him. When he was tired, I was the shoulder for him to rest on. When he was hungry, I was the one that shared a snack. When he was happy, I was there to laugh and smile with him. I know it sounds cliche and sappy, but I really tried with this one. I really put my all into it and he chewed me up and spit me out (not literally ha!). I don't think I have ever felt this used. Usually you can see it coming and have already prepared for "the talk", but this was out of no where. I have such a stomach ache filled with hurt tonight.
I think I have to come to terms that its okay to be single because true friends and family are always there to keep you company and bring you up. And at night when things are lonely, dreams will fill the voided space.
Well I guess my new found time will be at the gym getting ready for my beach body ;)
I'm glad to be back to my blog. And I promise my blog entries will get more cheerful!
And then out of no where...done. He was done with me. I was used up, worn out, and old. I wasn't as interesting to get to know, we went to every favorite restaurant, drank every type of beer, saw every new movie, and therefore, he was done. Except that I feel disrespected, drug around, led on, and misleaded. I feel like this happens to me a lot. Are there no good guys out there?? I'm beginning to think there aren't. For real.
The sad part was that I was in this new relationship 110%. When he was having a bad day I was there for him. When he was tired, I was the shoulder for him to rest on. When he was hungry, I was the one that shared a snack. When he was happy, I was there to laugh and smile with him. I know it sounds cliche and sappy, but I really tried with this one. I really put my all into it and he chewed me up and spit me out (not literally ha!). I don't think I have ever felt this used. Usually you can see it coming and have already prepared for "the talk", but this was out of no where. I have such a stomach ache filled with hurt tonight.
I think I have to come to terms that its okay to be single because true friends and family are always there to keep you company and bring you up. And at night when things are lonely, dreams will fill the voided space.
Well I guess my new found time will be at the gym getting ready for my beach body ;)
I'm glad to be back to my blog. And I promise my blog entries will get more cheerful!
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