Apprehension

Now that things are better from my last breakup it's safe to say that I put myself back out there again hoping for another chance at love.  I feel like I go down the same dirt road to the same dead end almost every time, though.  I find someone who I really like and can't wait at the chance to see again and I feel so connected and close to them and yet so far.  I know the "dating game" can be fun.  Going on dates to new restuarants, new bars, new place, but at the same time am I just wasting time?  Are they just wasting mine?  Am I just keeping their schedule filled?  Am I just "another girl"?  All of these questions and more haunt my brain, keep me stressed, keep me anxious, and keep my stomach hurting.  I don't understand those girls that find those amazing guys that want to spend all their time with them, take them places, buy them things, tell them they love them, and be their boyfriend.  Where in the world do they find them??  I'm serious to say that I feel they don't exist or that maybe I'm just attracted to the wrong ones.  I find the ones that aren't serious, that just think I'm pretty, that just want some time alone with me late at night when nothing else is going on. 
I joined a dating site in the fall and can say that I have gone on quite a few dates.  Some play out well and go on one or two more, some quickly fade and I would call them the "one and done", some showed pictures of themselves five years ago and don't look/act a thing like they say.  None last.  I have to say that I blame the site a bit because I know that its hard to feel a connection with someone based on their pictures and all of the positive things they say about themselves.  So, all in all the site wasn't as successful as I had hoped.  Was it fun?  absolutely.  Am I tired of the games and lack of connection?  Yes.
Back to who I found...He ended up not being from the dating site.  Someone that I connected to and saw almost on a daily basis.  Someone that made me blush when I talked to him.  Someone that made me laugh.  Someone that gave me butterflies when we hung out.  Someone that made me forget what I was thinking when I spotted him.  Never have I ever felt this way with anyone else.  NEVER.  I am so happy, but at the same time I am not.  Is he seeing other girls at the same time?  Does he really like me or is he just saying that?  Am I over thinking things...probably.  I brought up the whole "what are we doing" thing and I knew at that pause that I wasn't going to be happy. "I like what we are doing but I don't know what I want for the future".  If I could have this translated, I would really appreciate that.  It makes me sad but at the same time it could have potential.  I don't really know what to think anymore.  I have decided just ignoring what I said, being my happy self, and hoping he still wants to see me is the best bet for now.  I hope.  The dating world is just not that fun...or maybe the adult world is just not as easy as I had thought...