It's hard to believe that June is literally a few days away. I'm excited that the warm weather is finally approaching and here to stay! I still haven't purchased graduation pictures and I have a feeling it's going to be really weird to complete that final part for graduation. More so, it will be weird to finish my final class this summer. So far so good with it. Lots of reading and a good amount of papers. The commute is definitely a bit rough, but I think its a good distraction for the time being. On my days off from class I find myself (still) finding places for my college stuff, helping my family, and being a taxi driver for my brother. I think he has more of a social life than me!
I'm a bit disappointed that I have not seen anyone from school yet. I know some other "friends" have already gotten together and of course no invite for me. I really don't get it. I was never mean to them, yet they ignore me. It hurts my feelings. I thought I had a bit more faith in them. I know it really hasn't been that long (it sure feels like it for some reason) but I definitely miss school life and I don't want to lose friends. I'm hoping that its just the initial lull of the start of summer and the beginnings of job searching/money making.
It's scary that I have begun my job searching. I feel like I am just not old enough for this. Then again a neighbor didn't recognize me and thought I was a new neighbor--do I look old enough to buy a house?! I also saw a girl I graduated from high school with who already had two children. Wow. I didn't even know what to think. I guess it goes to show that you really do feel younger than you actually are.
Anyway, I'm hoping that summer continues on the right path. I always love this time of year and hoping with time everyone will be looking to get together and have some fun! I just have to continue to be positive :)
Sunday, May 29, 2011
Monday, May 16, 2011
Graduation Complete?
And so here I am on a monday night...done with finals, done with graduation, and at home. It's still surreal. I feel like I will be headed back to 19B within the next few days. I feel like my room is still all set up there and I'll be going back to my cozy room with all of my awesome roommates. The reality hasn't set in that I wont be going back and that this is actually the reality. I'm sad that I have come back to my small town with the little friends that have stayed in touch. My boring town that has nothing to do will soon enough make me want to run free from here. But for now I have to set goals and stay busy. I realize that it is impossible to see friends from school every weekend and I have to be able to keep busy on my down time to limit the sadness that may interfere.
I need to get back in shape. Whether that includes going back on weight watchers or just getting back into going into the gym a few days a week. I just know that if someone where to invite me to the pool tomorrow I would scream! So I'm going to try and fill the week nights with gym time in order to limit the boredom and in order to get back into shape.
I need to help my family/parents. I know how hard they have been working while I have been at school and I know that they need help. I need to be here for them when my brother needs picked up from school, or they need help with dinner, or grabbing groceries, or anything else that seems to be needed. I owe it to them to help them out with things while I am home.
I need to find hobbies that I enjoy. You know when social networks or anything for that matter asks what your hobbies are? I literally draw a blank. I think, hmm, what do I do after homework, in my spare time, when I just want some me time? I don't even know. Watch tv, sleep, surf the internet? Those are not hobbies. So the third goal is to find some real hobbies that I can keep myself busy with that I actually enjoy doing. My goal is for the gym to become my hobby--I'd like to be addicted if at all possible :)
And lastly, I need my room to get back into order. After dumping all of my college stuff in my closet and drawers, I can truly say that I don't have room for anything. I have so much school supplies and junk that needs to be cleared out, its not even funny! I need to sit down every now and then and continue going through my closet and finding a home (including the garbage) for everything that has been shoved in there.
I think with lots of things to do and the right goals in mind while at home, I'll be a lot happier. I know its going to be a change and right now I just have to face the facts and let the changes happen!
I need to get back in shape. Whether that includes going back on weight watchers or just getting back into going into the gym a few days a week. I just know that if someone where to invite me to the pool tomorrow I would scream! So I'm going to try and fill the week nights with gym time in order to limit the boredom and in order to get back into shape.
I need to help my family/parents. I know how hard they have been working while I have been at school and I know that they need help. I need to be here for them when my brother needs picked up from school, or they need help with dinner, or grabbing groceries, or anything else that seems to be needed. I owe it to them to help them out with things while I am home.
I need to find hobbies that I enjoy. You know when social networks or anything for that matter asks what your hobbies are? I literally draw a blank. I think, hmm, what do I do after homework, in my spare time, when I just want some me time? I don't even know. Watch tv, sleep, surf the internet? Those are not hobbies. So the third goal is to find some real hobbies that I can keep myself busy with that I actually enjoy doing. My goal is for the gym to become my hobby--I'd like to be addicted if at all possible :)
And lastly, I need my room to get back into order. After dumping all of my college stuff in my closet and drawers, I can truly say that I don't have room for anything. I have so much school supplies and junk that needs to be cleared out, its not even funny! I need to sit down every now and then and continue going through my closet and finding a home (including the garbage) for everything that has been shoved in there.
I think with lots of things to do and the right goals in mind while at home, I'll be a lot happier. I know its going to be a change and right now I just have to face the facts and let the changes happen!
Sunday, May 8, 2011
Approaching Responsibilities
I survived my finals! YES! It was a rough week for sure, but I was able to get through the week with limited sleep, tons of studying, lots of stress, and at the end of the week I was able to celebrate with all of my friends :) We attended a fancy dinner at a restaurant in the town nearby. It was so much fun to dress up even though the couple next to us thought we were only graduates of the local high school :( Do we really look that young...(while drinking a glass of wine)...? Afterwards we ended the the night with a party to celebrate our upcoming graduation with all of our friends. I have to say that it was such a good night getting to talk to everyone before we all part at graduation.
I'll be sad to move out of our apartment though. Its been such a wonderful year here. I've become so comfortable living here and with the opportunity to talk to my roommates whenever possible. Its been comfortable going to class daily and working on homework with spare time on the weekends. Its going to be sad wednesday morning when we all hang out for one last breakfast together before officially moving out :( And I know some tears will be shed at that point as well as at graduation. It just feels like it was only yesterday that my parents dropped me off at Linden--I was scared and part of me wanted to go back home with them. And yet today I can only say that I feel the opposite.
It's sad to think that everything is actually coming to an end soon. I'm nervous, excited, and worried. I'm worried that I'm going home to the lack of friends, fun, and excitement. I'm worried that I won't see any of my friends from school. I'm excited for a new chapter though. I'm excited for a change in life--a new job, new atmosphere, and new daily life. I'm nervous for all of the new things to come. I have tons of goals, though. I'm determined to find my passion in science in my future career. I'm determined to get rid of my stressed eating weight. I'm determined to find some new friends from home that are looking for fun. I'm excited to see where this road leads me. It will be an adventure and I think I'm ready for it :)
I'll be sad to move out of our apartment though. Its been such a wonderful year here. I've become so comfortable living here and with the opportunity to talk to my roommates whenever possible. Its been comfortable going to class daily and working on homework with spare time on the weekends. Its going to be sad wednesday morning when we all hang out for one last breakfast together before officially moving out :( And I know some tears will be shed at that point as well as at graduation. It just feels like it was only yesterday that my parents dropped me off at Linden--I was scared and part of me wanted to go back home with them. And yet today I can only say that I feel the opposite.
It's sad to think that everything is actually coming to an end soon. I'm nervous, excited, and worried. I'm worried that I'm going home to the lack of friends, fun, and excitement. I'm worried that I won't see any of my friends from school. I'm excited for a new chapter though. I'm excited for a change in life--a new job, new atmosphere, and new daily life. I'm nervous for all of the new things to come. I have tons of goals, though. I'm determined to find my passion in science in my future career. I'm determined to get rid of my stressed eating weight. I'm determined to find some new friends from home that are looking for fun. I'm excited to see where this road leads me. It will be an adventure and I think I'm ready for it :)
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