Monday, May 16, 2011

Graduation Complete?

And so here I am on a monday night...done with finals, done with graduation, and at home.  It's still surreal.  I feel like I will be headed back to 19B within the next few days.  I feel like my room is still all set up there and I'll be going back to my cozy room with all of my awesome roommates.  The reality hasn't set in that I wont be going back and that this is actually the reality.  I'm sad that I have come back to my small town with the little friends that have stayed in touch.  My boring town that has nothing to do will soon enough make me want to run free from here.  But for now I have to set goals and stay busy.  I realize that it is impossible to see friends from school every weekend and I have to be able to keep busy on my down time to limit the sadness that may interfere. 
I need to get back in shape.  Whether that includes going back on weight watchers or just getting back into going into the gym a few days a week.  I just know that if someone where to invite me to the pool tomorrow I would scream!  So I'm going to try and fill the week nights with gym time in order to limit the boredom and in order to get back into shape.
I need to help my family/parents.  I know how hard they have been working while I have been at school and I know that they need help.  I need to be here for them when my brother needs picked up from school, or they need help with dinner, or grabbing groceries, or anything else that seems to be needed.  I owe it to them to help them out with things while I am home.
I need to find hobbies that I enjoy.  You know when social networks or anything for that matter asks what your hobbies are?  I literally draw a blank.  I think, hmm, what do I do after homework, in my spare time, when I just want some me time?  I don't even know.  Watch tv, sleep, surf the internet?  Those are not hobbies.  So the third goal is to find some real hobbies that I can keep myself busy with that I actually enjoy doing.  My goal is for the gym to become my hobby--I'd like to be addicted if at all possible :) 
And lastly, I need my room to get back into order.  After dumping all of my college stuff in my closet and drawers, I can truly say that I don't have room for anything.  I have so much school supplies and junk that needs to be cleared out, its not even funny!  I need to sit down every now and then and continue going through my closet and finding a home (including the garbage) for everything that has been shoved in there.
I think with lots of things to do and the right goals in mind while at home, I'll be a lot happier.  I know its going to be a change and right now I just have to face the facts and let the changes happen!

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