too much to do and so little time

This week has been attacking me.  Do you ever feel like you have an overwhelming about of things to do and there is just not enough time in the day to do them all?  That's how I have been feeling.  There are so many things to do this month with last minute spring break things, birthday celebrations, and graduation/student teaching things.  My "to do" list just keeps on growing.  My goal is to stay on top of my to do list.  Finalize/purchase birthday presents and finish spring break plans are the goals for the rest of the week/weekend.  My homework seems to be piling up as well and lately sleep just isn't an option.  Sadly, my lingering cough would disagree with that statement.
Comparing freshman year to now, I would say that my responsibilities/things to do has more than doubled.  I don't even want to imagine the amount of work and stress I'll be enduring in another five years...

Guilty Pleasures

TRUEBLOOD.
The TV show Trueblood is my new obsession lately.  I would watch any episode and still think it is just as thrilling, exciting, and funny as the first time I had watched it.  What makes it even better is my love for Alexander Skarsgard...

...He is perfect.  I can dream, right?? :)

Reminders

Sometimes I just need a little reminder that I'm not alone...complements of my mom :)

Winter Germs

Getting sick is just miserable.  I feel like everyone I am surrounded by in class won't stop coughing, sneezing, sniffling, etc.  Of course, those germs just couldn't stay away.  Almost all of my friends came down with some sort of virus early this week.  Fever, body aches, cough, and congestion.  Gross.  It definitely has been miserable.  The only good excuse is that plenty of rest is needed, lots of tv/movie watching, no athletic classes, and double the cuddle time with someone special :).  Unfortunately, after all of this down time, my email has backed up, homework has piled up, and anything that I pushed aside needs to recollected and taken care of.  Getting back to reality is never fun, but the countdown until spring break still remains when I can get in lots of fun and relaxation--23 days! :)

New Goals

I can't believe that there are only four more weeks until spring break!  Could that really be true?!  Not only am I so happy to be going on vacation, but I'm even more excited for the warm weather.  It already seems promising with the temperature going to be in the 40's this week--yes! :)

So because of the countdown to spring break, my bathing suit body needs to get ready!  I have been doing this program called p90x and its great, but I'm definitely not seeing the results that i was hoping for.  I started to get some healthier food and my new goal is to cut down on some of the portion sizes.  My new goal is to also hit up the gym more often.  When will I have time to do this?....I'm not so sure.  But my goal is to make it happen!  I don't have class after 3:30 and I feel that 3:30 is the perfect snack time.  But, if I go to the gym instead, that might make things a little more productive in the afternoon.  I'm hoping this new gym goal can be achieved.  All I need to do is stay motivated...and maybe find a gym buddy :)

Hot and Cold, Up and Down

Do you ever have one of those days/weeks where you just feel like everyone is mad at you or against you?  Do you ever have the feeling like you just cant please everyone and its become frustrating?  Yea, that's me; except it seems to happen to me a lot.  I feel pushed around at times.  One minute I should be in 600 other locations entertaining 600 different people, but I cant.  I am only one person and I can only do so many things.  And I think that I need to learn to accept this and do the best that I can, but it still frustrates me.  I know this is how the "real world" is.  Tons of responsibilities and more things that need to get done in one day than one day can handle.  I know I just need to breath through the rough spots, stay focused, and stay positive.  I know I need to do those things at times, but the other times I'm looking for my "peanut gallery" for support.  I'm looking for those around me to be just as positive and just as motivating as I am trying to be.  But for some reason this semester I don't feel like my "peanut gallery" is all there and all too positive.  Lately I feel like where are the jokes, parties, trips, card games, and FUN??  I know we all have a ton of work, but wont we all have a ton of work after we graduate?  There always has to be a reasonable in between; plus all work and no play makes anyone dull.  I don't know where I am going wrong.  The rough part is that everyone seems to be in this blah mood. And that blah mood seems to be rubbing back on me.  It also probably doesn't help that its freezing cold and everyone has the winter blues, which is why I cant wait for spring!  It can't come soon enough! Plus I'm ready for flip flops! :)

I don't understand what happened, but all I know is that I need people to be a little less blah and a lot more fun!  Lets hope that this happens and fast.  I'm ready for smiles from everyone! :)

Major Fail

Remember when I talked about those bumps in the road?  Well, it didn't take long to hit one.  I'm studying biology and secondary education at my college.  Its been rough, but I have to say that I love science (I know that sounds nerdy).  I also have to say that I love the idea of teaching.  I have wanted to be a teacher since forever.  In order to be certified I have to take two exams and then fulfill student teaching at a high school.  The first exam went well and the second one sneaked up on me in January, but was survivable.  Except I guess not that survivable.  It was hard!  Everything that ever existed about science was in that exam that lasted about 6 hours....and I failed.  I'm so angry that I was about ten points from passing.  I'm angry that I have to waste time from my final semester studying.  I'm angry that I'm supposed to be in beautiful sunny Florida when the next exam is being offered.  I'm angry I have to waste more money to retake the exam.  I'm angry at myself.  And I'm angry to have to deal with one more thing on top of everything else that is falling in on me this semester.
I'm so frustrated with myself and I'm not looking forward to making these decisions and potentially destroying my spring break trip.  Not only is that going to take time to change, but it means more money.  It probably doesn't help that I have only had about 10 hours of sleep these past three days.  Life is so much more difficult if I'm hungry or tired and I'm sure everyone in some way agrees with that statement :)
I'm hoping with more sleep this weekend I can get my emotions in order and make some decisions.  Let's hope!

Boys, Boys, Boys

No, I don't have guys on my mind 24-7...maybe just 24-6 :)  Of course my first real post has to be about guys because, hey, what else seems to bother me these days.  Today (sunday) is actually my 5 month anniversary with my boyfriend :) ... but of course we have to find something to fight about today--sounds like old news.  What are we fighting about?  Just something that we can't seem to drop.  Now, tell me if this seems right to you.  His really good friend is a girl, which is perfectly fine.  He made it quite clear that they are just friends and nothing more.  Great.  Except that they don't act like "just friends" (especially when alcohol is involved).  They become stuck together like glue by each others sides, touching, pushing, yelling, hugging...you name it, it seems to happen (minus of course kissing).  And then when I get questioned about why I am distant and a little upset, he gets mad.  What the heck!  Does this not make sense to anyone else except myself?

So, today during the superbowl party, right in front of my eyes, they are stuck like glue.  And don't get me wrong, I encourage him to have a ton of friends and socialize, but I question why they talk, share everything, skype, and go places more so than we do.  Why not with me?  So, because of the awkwardness of the "involved friendship", things get a little weird.  I say goodbye to the group (with them still side by side) and I get in trouble later, thanks.  Of course to him, its all my fault.  I didnt try to talk to him enough, I watched the game too much, I socialized with not enough people....go ahead, keep the blames going.  And then the texts stop and the ignorance begins (on his part of course).  Thats fine, happy anneversary to you too (even though you forgot).

Phew, now that that is all out.  What do you think bloggers?  Am I making this into a bigger deal than it should be?  What am I supposed to do?

Here it goes!

Welcome to my new blog!  I'm so excited to get this started.  I'm using my blog as a place to express my thoughts, talk about the future, and see where life leads me.  As college graduation is approaching I have so many things to do and think about before the best four years of my life will be coming to an end.  I don't know whether to cry or be happy for the current chapter to end and the new chapter to be quickly approaching.  I hope that you will enjoy my story as much as I can only hope for all the good things ahead!