Remember when I talked about those bumps in the road? Well, it didn't take long to hit one. I'm studying biology and secondary education at my college. Its been rough, but I have to say that I love science (I know that sounds nerdy). I also have to say that I love the idea of teaching. I have wanted to be a teacher since forever. In order to be certified I have to take two exams and then fulfill student teaching at a high school. The first exam went well and the second one sneaked up on me in January, but was survivable. Except I guess not that survivable. It was hard! Everything that ever existed about science was in that exam that lasted about 6 hours....and I failed. I'm so angry that I was about ten points from passing. I'm angry that I have to waste time from my final semester studying. I'm angry that I'm supposed to be in beautiful sunny Florida when the next exam is being offered. I'm angry I have to waste more money to retake the exam. I'm angry at myself. And I'm angry to have to deal with one more thing on top of everything else that is falling in on me this semester.
I'm so frustrated with myself and I'm not looking forward to making these decisions and potentially destroying my spring break trip. Not only is that going to take time to change, but it means more money. It probably doesn't help that I have only had about 10 hours of sleep these past three days. Life is so much more difficult if I'm hungry or tired and I'm sure everyone in some way agrees with that statement :)
I'm hoping with more sleep this weekend I can get my emotions in order and make some decisions. Let's hope!
i failed my spanish praxis the first time i took it...by like 4 points. i was so discouraged. i even had a job pending on passing the test. but, i retook it and passed...by like 4 points. things like this work out. i have no doubt that you will be fine. i know it's discouraging and disappointing and stressful, but you will get through it. try to get some sleep!
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