Being home was so nice. It is definitely good to be back here, though. I really love our apartment. And getting to talk to my roommates at any time is perk.
I had a final talk with "him" and let me tell you, I feel a lot better. I was slightly reassured that we will be friends again and that it will take some time, but eventually we can (I'm sure with some work) be the friends like we once were. I was glad that things were actually not awkward and that we were able to have a really mature adult talk. I can't say that it was fun, but there were a few smiles in there where I was reassured that we'd both be okay.
Part of me was really excited to see him since I hadnt seen him in a while, but thats where my heart hurts. I miss our long talks (with smiles and laughter) and our times just hanging out. And I know its going to take a while for that to be able to happen without my heart hurting or my feelings getting in the way. I know that I have to move on and I know there is someone out there for me that will love me just as much as I love them back. I know he's just hiding :)
I hope this week proves to be good. I have lots of plans and lots of work and hopefully there will be lots of smiles! The true test will be when i hang out with some friends middle of the week where he will be there. I CAN DO IT THOUGH. I know i can :) I know I have pulled myself together pretty well pretty quickly. It still hits me that I'm not with him and I miss that, but then I tell myself that being single isn't that bad either. It's time to really get my flirt on, especially for this summer ;)
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