Better days are ahead

Yesterday was a little bit of a better day and I hope that today is too.  I had a lot of distractions yesterday with exams and hanging out with my roommates again last night, which is always great.  I actually think that I laughed more than I have in a while...thank goodness!  I was wondering where my laugh/smile had run off to!  Whenever there is down time though, that's when he gets back in my head. 
I'm really excited to go home this weekend, but at the same time I feel like I could be missing out on events that will be going on this weekend.  I was invited to a party that he was having prior to the breakup and obviously I'm probably not invited anymore nor would I actually be going.  But, it makes me think about what I will be missing and how much fun they will all be having and how I wont be there.  I guess that I just have to keep telling myself that better days are ahead and that I will not be missing that much.  I've been needing a lot of pep talks from myself to tell myself that its really okay and it is for the better and that I know im going to find someone who is 1,000x better who will really love me for me.  I know that time will only make things better and I am grateful that I was able to get through this week.  Unfortunately, we still havent had a closing talk and I really hope that wont set me back down the road of sadness when that happens next week, but then again does he even want to talk to me?  He probably isnt as concerned.  That's where I get kind of mad.  Is he that upset?  How long has he really been pulling back from our relationship?  Probably a long time...but my denial has been in play for a long time as well.  That's where this a learning experience for me.  I know I need to stop the denial in relationships when I see things going downhill.  I can't always hold on.  And I really need to pick the winners of the bunch and not the losers like I have been picking in my past. 
I hope that a night out with my sister and some time with my family this weekend will really pick up my mood and bring back my smile so that I can start next week fresh with a new outlook on the rest of the semester!