Updates and Thoughts

So, my caffeine free two weeks was only a brief phase.  These past few days have been exhausting and the caffeine has been much needed!  I'm going to try again this summer and I'm hoping that it stays longer than two weeks.
On on other thoughts, I have to say that since "the breakup", I have been feeling much better and more like myself.  As I look back I realize it was for the better and I accept what has happened.  Does it still make me sad at times? Yes.  Do I sometimes wish that we were still together? Of course.  But, then some nights (like tonight) I question even our friendship.  Thanks to social networking sites, I can really get the 411 on what people are up to based on their posts.  (People seem to forget this sometimes).  When he promised me that we would still be friends and he would let me know about events/parties and that we would stay in touch...well...that seems like a lie.  Am I disappointed? Yes.  Am I a little shocked? Yes.  Am I little angry? You bet!  What are him and his friends up to tonight? Oh you probably guessed it--having a party.  I thought that based on our prior friendship since freshman year and our actual relationship/friendship that developed while dating that things would be a little different post breakup.  I figured that with our maturity and friendship that invitations to events would be easy and would be wanted.  It makes me really take a step back and reevaluate friendships and makes me sad to think that time spent with friends believed to be actual friends could be "fake".  Ugh.  Thats when senioritis hits hard again and makes me ready to take on a new chapter in life with my true friends from school by my side.  I guess I put too much faith in people...
On a lighter note, I'm presenting in the science syposium tomorrow.  I'll be presenting about the biological research that I have been working on the past two years.  It will be interesting and definitely a long day, but its usually rewarding and knowledgable in the end.
So, party with "friends"?  Nahh, I'm off to discover, learn, and save the world...one bacteria at a time :)