I have to say that being home this weekend has been so wonderful. I really have to say that I feel 10x better from being home and staying busy. I know it will be a little difficult going back to school only because of the memories I'm going back to. I still say that he picked a bad time to do what he did. He couldn't have waited another 4 or 5 weeks? Even the day after graduation would have been so much better. I know I am told that it may not have been good that way, but I guess the truth would be that no time is a good time (you are right, katie).
My brother's first words to me when he saw me on friday was that "he" puts the "b" in "bs"...that made me giggle.
I had a long talk with my sister and my mom and I am confident to say that I know I'm going to be okay from this point on. No more tears during class and hopefully no more panic feelings. I know my mind is still going to wonder when I'm on my own, but I think that it will decrease as graduation things get crazy, fun with friends takes up lots of time, and new people/opportunities come into my life.
I do have to say that I apologize greatly to my roommates and bff (you know who you are) for being such a pain this semester. I know my mood wasn't always the best and I know I complained a lot about my unhappiness. I guess I didn't want to stop being in love and because of my lack of successful relationships, I was still holding on hope that things would turn around at some point for the better. I know I was foolish and I have to work on that with my future relationships. But, I thank you and love you to death for sticking with me and helping me through the rough spots where I didn't know what to do with myself. You are the best!!!
I hope that this summer we can all get together and plan some fun things--perhaps another medieval times trip and fighting over roses and sashes would be another fun memory :) I was getting pretty sentimental about graduation talk this weekend and I'm so afraid that I wont see anyone after this summer or even after graduation. It makes me sad to think about what I will be losing if that is to happen. But I hope that with our great friendships that we can stay good friends and plan lots of fun and stay in touch often! I'm definitely going to live it up these next few weeks. I want to have tons of fun and get tons of work done and not waste one minute! ( I found my smile this weekend and plan to use it to the fullest!) I think it has really sunk in that graduation is in 4 weeks!!? Wow, did four years really fly by!
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